One moment. That's what it took for my world to turn upside down, for my heart to be broken into a million pieces and for my soul to be shattered.

That look she gave me with her wide brown eyes that filled with desperation as they literally pleaded for me to act on the situation.

But, I was one idiot who couldn't give her what she wanted. All because I was stunned. Stunned due to the fact that someone other than me looked straight into eyes of the girl with whom I'm in love with since six years, in front of me and I could do nothing about it.

My heart pleaded with me and my soul begged me, my mind threatened me of the consequences that would follow if I didn't open my mouth when she gave me that look.

The look that begged me to engulf her in my arms and take what's mine but I was a coward. I was an insensible bastard who could do nothing but stare as the other guy wrapped his arms around her, lifted her high into the air and twirled her around. She still had her gaze locked on me and me into hers.

I watched him as he stared into those gorgeous eyes of hers and she finally shifted her gaze from me when she got to know that I would be the coward I am and would never get to her to claim what's mine, that I would never hold her and pull her into me away from the guy who's holding her now, the guy she hated the most.

When she came running to me ten minutes ago begging me to help her and never let go of her hand when he’d come to get her because she never loved him.

She wanted to spit on his face as she looks at him in the eyes and tell him to get the hell away from her just because she trusted me to hold her all the while and I promised her to.

I promised her that I'd be by her side the whole time and help her when she knocks some sense into him that she spent time with him till now only because her parents wanted for her to get married to him but not because she loved him.

It was when I promised to her that she smiled for the first time which soothed my heart as her lips curled and shiny teeth peeked out. She hugged me when I promised her and then she looked into my eyes and said, “I trust you. I know that you’ll be my side.”

But what did I do? I let go of her had as soon as he came into my view. I broke all my promises to her as I took back a step with me being my cowardly self. Still smiling, she turned expecting me to be by her side but her smile vanished to find me not by her side but by her back.

Her eyes widened with horror as she took in the knowledge of me as I ratted myself off from the situation giving up on her and didn't restrain when he wrapped his arms around her. She flinched for a second as she felt his arms snaking around her waist as she still had her gaze locked on me.

He called her baby and it felt like my heart was clenched in a fist and the life was squeezed out of it.

When she finally turned away from me to face him after displacing her trust in me, it felt like my only source of lifeline is snatched away from me.

But, it was when he pulled her closer to him and rested his lips on hers that I truly felt like I've lost my life.

When she didn't pull back but continued to kiss him, my legs gave out and I dropped to my knees as my hands lay limping by my side lifeless.

My vision blurred and every single fibre of my body despised me at that moment. Even the teardrop that threatened to fall seemed to hate me as it dropped out and rolled down my cheeks.

All because I couldn't find it in me to hold her hand when she needed me. All because I was a coward when I was supposed to be with her as she trusted me to do so with the ten year friendship that sustained between us.

I could feel the heat emancipating from the sun as it shone brightly over the horizon. Every ray that fell on me burned me with the sorrow of my soul as the sun began to set for the day to provide its light and warmth to the other part of the world.

My life seemed to be just like the setting sun. Every single second that passed by, the sun sunk lower and lower as well as the girl whom I loved more than anything else got away further and further.

But the only difference was, the sun sets down with the promise of rising again the next day. It rises up shining brightly spreading its warmth as it fulfills its promise which it made the previous day unlike me who broke the promise I gave to her.

"You don't deserve her you idiot. She needs someone better than you, someone in whom she can place her trust on but not on someone like you who couldn't do anything but hold back letting her go from your grasp," I could feel my conscience speaking to me.

I deserved it because I couldn't be the one she wanted me to be. I deserved it because I couldn't stand up for the girl I love.

As my body shook with grief, I raised my eyes to look at my girl…..nope, not my girl now…..as she had his hand wrapped around her waist and she rested her head on his shoulder walked away from me.

My last thought was of me cursing myself for being my regular self. I cursed at my doomed fate as they crossed my line of vision for one last time before they vanished from my sight. I hated myself for what I did to her before my vision blacked out and I lost my consciousness .........to be continued.